Chapters 11 and 12 pages 125-135

pg)125 We got home and the motorycle boy read and i waited and smoked. I waited for nothing I just sat there on the mattress. There was a fight one night I'd been cut bad one guys was dead and many injue=red by the motorcycle boy. pg)126 He didn't even care . He was laughing about it all. Old man came in changed his shirt again before he went out. I hadda ask him a question about our mom if she is nuts. He looked and stared then said no. He told me there marriage was bad thats why she left. pg)127 I didn't wanna hear that. I thought she hadda be nuts to marry my dad. She only married him for fun and he married for love. Wonder why he's always so upset that must be horrible. He told me everyone ahs a different look on the world. It doesn't make them crazy just unusual. pg)128 I never understand how he talks so he hadda explain it again in simple terms. My mom was not crazy or my brother why were just stuck in the wrong time. The motorcycle boy didn't even hear us. I told my dad im gonna look just like the motorcycle boy. He looked for awhile. He said, "You better hope not." pg)129 Motorcylcle boy broke into the petstore. I went along, I wasn't invited but i just went. I begged him not to kinda like Steve always did to me. He wouldn't listen to me. He kept trying to get the door open. I didn't want him to get caught. pg)130 He got in and turned on the light like an idiot. He just looked around the store and didn't care who saw him. He let out al the animals. I watched cause i was shaking real bad. I just cried and it hurt bad to cry. He had the fish in his hands. I knew where he was going the river. I heard the cop sirens and just tried to run. I head a mixture of noises. I was at the brige when i heard shots. pg)131 How do they expect my brother to hear gun shots. He doesn't hear anything at all half the time. He just keeps walking. He knew that when he shot him. I remeber the police flipping over my brother and he was smiling when they did it. I can't remeber much after that besides being on a police car. I couldn'y see color anymore. Everything was black and gray it was scayr. I knew something was wrong. pg)132 I couldn't hear my self speak i screamed at the top of my lungs and I still coulnd't hear it. I started shaking and my head was throbbing. Somone said something about the hospital. I didn;t wanna go. I punched the window in the police car and cut my wrists so i hadda go to the hospital.

pg)133 Steve asked if I ever went back to the neighborhood. I never did. Neither did he. Steve got out because he wanted to and he tried his hardest to. He set a goal and reached it. pg)134He wanted to buy me a beer. I don't drink no more I can't I don't like the taste. He wanted to go for dinner. I knew I never would go. He said i look like my brother, my voice is just different. Steve wasn't the same as when we were kids. He was a completely different person ghost like. pg)135 He shouted a he walked away, "I'll see ya sometime." I knew he never would I didn't wanna remeber the past but its taking along time to forget.

Chapter 10 pages 115-124

pg)115 I went to benny's like usual. No one was there, which I expected. I looked out the window to see if the motorcyle boy was walking by. Pople came in and I told them the story of our night. They thought it was pretty cool. pg)116 Some people didn't believe but wehn they saw the lump on my head they did. Steve was bad to so when they saw him it'd be even more real. Patty came in and she never did so I was surprised. I thought she was lookn for me but she wasn't. She sat down in a booth by herself and waited . Smokey showed up and sat by her. pg)117 I wanted to kick Smokey's butt so bad, but i acted cool adn asked him to come outside. He just thought about fighting, but i didn't wanna. I just wanted to talk, not fight. Patty and I still loved each toher. We don't admit it but we did. Smokey came outside. pg)118 Everyone got good seats around the windows to see us, even though we weren't gonna fight. We sat down at a bench and talked. Smokey planned that night at the lake so he can get with Patty cause he knew I would cheat on her. pg)119 Then he went off anf said if there was a gang he'd be president not me. I'm the toughest guy here I would definatley be it. He called me dumb which iwas offensive. He really liked Patty a lot. pg)120 I hadda fight him even though I didn't wanna it was all part of my rep. B.J. came in. I was glad cause i could talk to him. He told me that Cassandra was a sub today at school. pg)121 She told B.J. too tell me life does go on if you let it. I have no clue what this means. He told me the motorcycle boy was in the pet store. That one cop just wants a reason to get the motorcycle boy. So he better watch himself. He only goes after the two of us. He doesn't give B.J. and them a hard time. pg)122 Patterson was one of the only people that thought I looked like the motorcycle boy. I liked that about him. He wanted to go to Benny's with me and get a coke. I didn't wanna. I wouldn't care if I ever went in there again and I never did after that day. I saw the motorcycle boy at the petstore. He was sure enough looking at the fish. He didn't even notice me though. pg)123 All the fish were separted in different bowl. I never see them like that. Motorcycle boy said they were rumble fish, they'll kill each other if there together. There was a parrot there. It never sold cause we taught it bad words, kind of funny. If you put a mirror by the fish they'd kill themselves cause they saw there reflectin, pretty neat. pg)124 I knew the owner would call the cops if he didn't leave. He was upset he couldn't see the colors, first time he was ever sorry for anything. He didn't wanna go anywhere. I threw out offers but he didn't answer. I hated the petstore to it was creepy. We stayed till he closed the shop up. After I followed the motorcyle boy the best i could I had nothing to do anymore.

Chapter 9 pages 104- 114

pg)104 My head was killing me next day so i went to the doctors. It was a free clinic i went to and it was packed with people. I went there before so it wasn't new to me. pg)105 The doctor looked my age, it was crazy. I tol d him i bumped my head. It didn't seem like he believed but wahtever he went along with it. I had a fever so he told me to get x-rays at the hospital. pg)106 I refuse to go to the hospital i hate em. Then I felt so strange and almost fell over. The doctor had to grab me to keep me from falling. Well yep it looks like im going to the hospital. As soon as he left the room i ran outof the clinic so fast. I wasn't going to no hospital. I swiped a bottle of asprin out of a drug store. pg)107 I went to Steve's after the doctors. I knew his parents wouldn't be home so it was safe. He opened the door for me when i walked up and he looked horrible. His father beat him. It looked worse than if he actaully got into a gang fight. His house was really nice, I was never in it before besides this time. pg)108 I couldn't believe his father actaully hit him like that. He didn't want me to tell no one. No one ever hits Steve. I alywas protect him from everything. I could never even think about my old man beating me up like that. pg)109 Steve wasn't even mad about his dad. He acted like he deserved it when he didn't. He didn't no why I came over. I did because me and Steve needa follow around the motorcycle boy. pg)110 Steve didn't like my idea. I was so scared of whats gonna happen. It just hit me when I got beat up. I dont want the motorcycle boy to leave again ever. pg)111 I asked Steve to help me but he don't wanna. He hadda go to school though, he wanted me to meet him after. He wanted to know why I never asked B.J. or Smokey to help me. They don't no the motodrcycle boy like me and Steve do. They'd porbably laugh at me. Steve called him nuts and I freaked out i pushed him up against the wall. Then I went blank and couldn't see anything. pg)112 When I finally got my sight back i saw Steve and he asked if I was alright. I would have laughed if it was anyone else that was with me when i blanked out, but Steve was different he's my bestfriend. I sat down and thought of Patty. It made me really sad. I hadda ask Steve someting important. I do a lot for that kid. He said, "Dont do it." I couldn't talk anymore i was just gonna cry. pg)113 Steve felt sorry for me and I didn't want him to. Steve was going on about wierd stuff i didn't understand. Everyone I love talks about wierd stuff. All i wanted to do was be like the motorcycle boy. I admired his toughness and indiviuality. pg)114 Steve seemed like he didn't like the motorcycle boy. He wouldn't tell me why either. I got up and left cause i didn't wanna get agry. He changed the subject and said i better go to a doctor, which I did i just didn't go to the hospital. As i was leaving he said that i better let go of the motorcycle boy cause I'd stop believing. I still believe. I've been around him my whole life. Steve gave me a wierd smile. I said bye. He said, "Rusty James, I'm sorry." That was the last time I saw Steve.

Chapter 8 pages 91-103

pg)91 We were at a bar with the motorcyle boy. It was dark and smokey. Me and Steve didn't mind though. Steve was carving something on the table, which i doubt he knew. pg)92 The motorcycle boy was winning pool, but it wasnt a surprise cause he always won. The man playing him said that the motorcycle boy was fine. I knew I was gonna look just like him, but the man thought otherwise. Steve wanted more wine but we were out unfortunetly. I leaned back and closed my eyes for a second, i opened them adn motorcycle boy was gone. I guess this place wasn't cool enough for him. pg)93 We walked outside and it was dark and scary. Steve hadda throw up again but i convinced him not to. The motorcycle boy left us and we had no clue where we were. pg)94 We were walking in the middle of the street cause you never no wahts gonna jump out on the sidewalk. I started through alleyways, Steve didn't wanna come but he did. I did the old well if your scared thing on him. It always works. Steve shuted to me to stop and i did. Two huge shadows appeared from the building. pg)95 The guys were form gangs and I knew they were gonna kill us. Steve was shaking behind me and couldnt move. I kept my distance from them. I thought about Patty, my dad, and mother and how they would feel if they kiiled. pg)96 The guys at Benny's would think it would be cool, but I knew i was gonna die. It was scary. I said to the guys bug off. Then I went blank i couldn't remeber. Steve told me the guy hit me in the head. Then I remeber floating like an angel above the alley and seeing Steve and the gang guys standing there. pg)97 The one guy said he killed me and he hadda kill Steve to. I got back to my body and my head hurt so bad. I couldn't move even though I wanted to i just couldn't. Steve was yelling they killed me and they obviously didn't because he was alive. Someone pulled me up and I was leabing against something. pg)98 It was the motorcycle boy. Steve was crying I knew he would. The motorcycle boy kind of thought it was ironic that he was holding his half dead brother, me, in a disgusting alley way. pg)99 Motorcycle boy just kept talking but I couldn't think straight at all. Steve was so upset by wahtever he was saying. He was screaming. The motorcycle boy lived in a bubble basically, nothing ever phased him. pg)100 When I finally woke up we were still where we were lastnight. In the alley sitting down. I was so cold. Steve asked if I was alive and I was cause i was awake. Me and the motorcycle boy had the same outfit on cause i always got his. We looked a lot alike. Same hair same eyes. pg)101 People never thought we were brothers. The guys that attacked us got beaten up by the motorcycle boy bad. Steve begged me to go to the hospital but i really didn't wanna. Steve freaked out cause i took the situation litely. Nothing rally bothered me. I was still alive they didn;t kill me. pg)102 If felt so sick the motorcycle boy and Steve were aruging but i wanted to be dead the pain hurt so bad I couldn't take it. pg)103 The motorcycle boy didn't belong anywhere. It was wierd but scary to cause everyone belongs somewhere. All I wanted to do was go home already. I couldn't keep my balance so the motorcycle boy had to help me. He said gangs will come back if i live that long. I didn't understand this but oh well I just wanted to sleep.

Chapter 7 pages 73-90

pg)73 We ended up going dowtown for the night. Usually I have to beg Steve to come anywhere with me, but this time he didn't put up a fight he just came. Steve wasn't himself since his mom went into the hospital. He seemed very empty. pg)74 Steve came over and I put some vodka in a bottle for the night. We stopped at the river cause motorcycle boy wanted to. He loved rivers. Steve suprisingly took a drink out of the bottle. He hated the taste but didn't complain to much. pg)75 I had a feeling that it was going to be a good night. Steve tried to pick a fight with me as we were walking. I ignored him cause I didn't wanna fight my bestfriend. pg)76 I love the city. I love going there it always makes me so happy. Steve now drank more from the bottle than before. The city's so colorful and the motorcycle boy is missing out cause he can't see no colors. I feel bad for him but he don't mind to much. pg)77 I thought of Patty for a moment and then she was gone. I couldn't think of her, it'd ruin my time. Motorcycle boy was explaining to Steve what it felt like to be colorblind. Steve usually never talks to him its wierd what alcohol can do to a person. pg)78 I threw out a movie idea, and Steve and the Motorcycle boy agreed. You had to be 18 to see the movie but the Motorcycle boy bought our tickets so we got in. pg)79 Steve was being really loud and obnioxious but thats because he was still drinking the bottle, he didn't know what he was saying. I told Steve about the time i got into an 18 movie and the cops raided it. Steve got real nervous and quited down. He said he rather be in jail then at home, things must be pretty bad for him. I put my feet on the seat infront of me and got dirty looks, but hey I don't really care what they think. pg)80 The guy ended up moving over. My mission was accomplished. Steve started laughing at me. It wasn't that funny but oh well. The motorcycle boy never watched the movies he watched the people, and now Steve was doing that too. It didn't bother me so i continued watching the movie. pg)81 I didn't want Steve to miss it so I gave him a tap on the shoulder and he turned around. He got sick and hadda go to the john. After awhile we decided to go and check on him. pg)82 Steve wa outside and looked real sick, poor kid. Steve was scared but he'll get over it. He took another drink and was alright. pg)83 There were cars everyone. Boy do i love the city. The lights and sounds are amazing. I hate being by myself maybe thats why i like cities cause their full of people. The motorcycle boy explained to me why I don't like being alone. It was a sad story but it was in the past. pg)84 I didn't really unsersatdn waht he was saying, I took a drink out of the bottle and forgot all about it. Motorcycle boy stopped to look at a cycle on the street. pg)85 Then motorcycle boy told me he saw our mother. Who I don't even remeber. That's why he went to California. She's rich now, what a surprise. pg)86 She lives with a movie producer and is going to live with an artist in the mountains. Must be nice to forget you have kids who have no money at all. pg)87 She wanted the motorcycle boy to stay out there in California with her. I was telling Steve how i knew nothing about my mom. We couldn't even keep up with the motorcycle boy anymore he was going so fast. pg)88 I beat up some random guys. He got in my way. Steve was scared so i stopped with my temper and cooled down. The motorcycle boy stopped to talked so did me and Steve. pg)89 We kept drinking the bottle and Steve got really dizzy. I started acting silly with people, how i usually am. We ended up walking around and found a party which we went to. pg)90 Steve was in the corner with some girl, he thought he was dreaming cause he never gets girls. I had a horrible headache after we left the party and just looked around at the lights.

Chapters 5 and 6 pages 52-72

pg)52 After that little incident Steve and me both went home. I ran into the Motorcycle Boy's "girlfriend", well at least she thought she was when i was walking up the steps to my apartment. I don't like her much, shes wierd. pg)53 She was from a good family and left that to chase the motorcycle boy around, wow what a loser. She tried saying hi to me but I wasn't answering her so i shoved her and was on my way. pg)54 She was doing dope, what a surprise. pg)55 The motorcycle boy doesn't like druggies, he threatened to kill me if he ever found out I was doing drugs. When I went upstairs the motocycle boy was there, which I'd been hoping all along. There was nothing to eat in the house but crackers and sardines, I ate them anyways since i wasn't picky. The motorcycle boy is colorblind, which is strange but it don't bother him one bit. I hate being alone so i told the motorcycle boy to stay home with me. pg)56 He was worried about me which took me by surprise cause he didn't worry about no one. pg)57 The old man came in after ahwile and gave me some money. My dad went to law school but we don't tell no one cause its embarrassing knowing your dad went to college and his now on welfare. Motorcycle boy and my father started talking. Sometimes they go on for hours and just talk. I never understood why either. pg)58 Me and my dad are okay i guess. We don't really talk but we don't mind each other either. He liked me more than the motorcycle boy cause he looks like my mom , I don't remeber her but it hurts my dad when he looks at him to think of her. pg)59 My dad never said that to me but I know he wants to cause i look just like the motorcycle boy which means I look like my mom. Motorcycle boy seemed upset about Cassandra. He believes shes not hooked but I don't for a second. My old man chimed in with something that made no sense like he always does, wow hes pathetic. pg)60 I went to sleep after that, Smokey came but and picked me up at around midnight. We had a party at the lake. My dad mentioned something about the cops being after me. I told him it was motorcycle boy they were after. I was beat so i cut school again and just slept.

pg)61 That after noon was horrible. I got expelled from school and Patty dumped me. I went to school late like every other day and they sent me to the guidance counselor. pg)61 He went on and on and ended in we can not tolerate your behavior. He listed all the things i did which i knew cause i did them. Then i realized i was being kicked out. pg)63 He wanted me to go to Cleveland which is where Biff and his gang go. I was sure to be dead if I went there. I begged him not to send me there but it didn't matter he was gonna anyways. pg)64 I had so much on my mind i couldn't even think straight. I wanted to punch him right in the face but i held myself back and didn't. He told me that if I didn't go to Cleveland there was a Youth Detention Center waiting for me. I had a couple weeks to think about things before they got to me so i was kind of happy. I wanted to slash his tires so bad. pg) 65 Coach Ryan tried to act all cool again, and it didn't work. I was kind of sad about leaving school all my friends were there. pg)66 After i left i went to Benny's. It was pretty boring since everyone was in school and not there. I tried to go to a bar but got thrown out like usual. So i decided to go to Patty's. pg)67 She went to an all girls school whichis ironic cause she always had a boyfriend. Patty got off hte bus and pretended like she didn't even notice me. She started yelling at me about the party I went to. pg)68 I don't even remeber what happened but she was mad over whatever it was. She was really mad and ran away and she said she never wanted to see me again. I was bummed cause I really liked Patty a lot. pg)69 I felt like i was going to cry. I never cry so I don't really know the feeling. I walked around for what seemed like hours. I finally spotted the motorcycle boy and he gave me a cigarette. I told him were doing something tonite and he was fine with the idea. Steve was gonna come with us cause I like when Steve came he kept me company. pg)70 He had his picture in the magazine with a motorcycle. What a surprise. The picture was good and it was a national magazine which was cool. pg)71 I wanted to tell everyone but he didn't want me to. He'd beem acting funny so I went along with whatever he said. pg)72 I spotted the cop my dad was talking about. He watched us leave the drug store. The motorcycle boy didnt even notice him. I told him it was a nice picture and he said yes. He had a little bit of a smile on which he never smiled and it scared me when did cause it wasn't him.

Chapter 4 pages 40-51

pg)40 I ended up going to school the next day. I was still bleeding but not as bad. I was late but I'm always late so no big deal. pg)41 Steve wasn't there and i started asking around. A girl told mehis mother was sick thats why he didn't show. I went to the basement to play poker with the guys. I lost and didn't like it. Gym was next. pg)42 Our gym teacher, Coach Ryan, always tried to be friends with me. He was always on my side, I don't know why either I'm not nice to him. He even offered me five bucks to punch this kid in the face, Don Price. pg)43 I showed him my cut. He tried to act all cool by saying Hey Man, he's thrity years old, thats not cool. My english teacher just read us stories i didn't pay attention there was no need to. I am one of the dumb people, Steve is smart I ain't in any of his classes ever since grade school. After school i went to Pattys. pg)45 Her mom's car was still there so i left and went to benny's to shoot some pool. Steve came and said his old lady was real sick. pg)46 I need the money my old man gets a check form the government and wastes it all at the bars. I decided to steal some parts off a chevy sitting infront of an apartment. pg)47 I handed Steve the hubcaps, wow i wasn't thinking then. Then three big guys came out of the apartment and chased after us. We had a good run, those guys were right behind us. pg)48 We went over a fence up stairs and jumped rooftops, Steve almost didn't make it but i grabbed him and pulled him up. pg)50 He was yelling at me for stealing the hubcaps and then i passed out. I don't remeber nothing after that. pg)51 I woke up and Steve dragged some lady up to help. I was fine, but the lady was mad. We walked about three blocks and Steve started crying. I never saw nobody cry but girls, it scared me. I figured it must be about his mom, I don't remeber mine so i didn't understand his pain.